Feb. 3rd, 2012

thistledear: (dreaming)
Man, fuck anxiety dreams. It's 12:30 and I'm scared to go back to sleep because of a dream that just got progressively worse.

It started off with me back in college, unable to remember the last time I'd been to class and all too aware of looming finals. I was also being chased around campus by a fangirl's friend who wanted to know what all the fuss was about. My pockets had two lunches in them because I was so stressed I'd bought another forgetting that I'd gotten lunch already.

I finally decided to leave and headed home, which for some reason was going to take me through downtown Dallas. I could see it off in the distance--on fucking FIRE. Turned off my ipod, found a news station, and found out we'd been hit by a terrorist attack. I woke up when I got too close and my car started to heat up.

To add insult to injury, my brain decided to throw an auditory hallucination at me as I woke up, and I thought I heard someone rapping at the front door with the knocker. I knew it was a hallucination, but my anxiety levels were so high at that point I had to get up and check anyway.

And now I'm scared to go back to sleep. So I powered up the laptop and wrote this to take some of the poison out of the sting. I really need sleep. I want good dreams for the rest of the night :(


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